“Let there be peace on Earth And let it begin with me.”  -Vince Gill I posted a while back about the Chicago Cubs representing a new found belief in miracles and hope. And then I had a really rough couple of weeks. Nothing bad happened that I can put my finger on, except that our hope that we conceived a “World Series baby” was dashed by a single pink line in mid November. Tony was there this time when I tested and had nothing but optimism and compassion for me when the tears came. I thought a lot about gratitude over Thanksgiving week. I felt so blessed to be able…

I wanted to write this post during the middle of the post-season playoffs, but I found myself too nervous to jinx the Cubs’ chances of making history!  I grew up watching the Cubbies and was lucky enough to make it to a few games at the magical “friendly confines” of Wrigley Field before we moved to Texas in 2001. My grandfather was a huge Cubs fan, and I remember spending hours in front of the TV with my grandpa and my dad, learning all there is to know about baseball.  Some people find baseball tiresome to watch, but there was something about the Cubs that kept me, and millions of…

I’ve learned in these past months that if you try ignore an emotion, feeling or thought, it comes back around in full force. Science tells us that anxiety triggers a release of stress hormone, called cortisol which raises blood pressure, heart rate and sometimes releases adrenaline. When you try ignore a scary thought or reality, your brain sends another message to your stress response system and sends out a stronger wave of cortisol in the attempt to get you to pay attention. Ignore it again, and you will face a stronger wave and so on. This is how a worrisome thought can lead to a panic attack. I’ve had my moments…

There are no words, but I will try. The feelings that I had upon making my private struggle public, left me speechless.  Last Saturday I hit “post” and “share” and immediately felt a wave of emotions overcome me.  I felt sick to my stomach, dizzy, shaky and hung on tight as a roller coaster of adrenaline swept over me. Back when I started writing for my own healing and understanding, I had always planned on sharing my blog eventually through Instagram.  I wanted to help my family and friends understand my point of view.  Instagram is my social media of choice nowadays, but Facebook is another story. When Facebook first came out when…

“How very quietly you tiptoed into our world, silently, only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left upon our hearts.”  -Unknown. This post is dedicated to all parents who have experienced the earth-shattering heartache that is pregnancy and infant loss,  to the millions of women who are longing to hold a “rainbow baby” in their arms, to the couples who struggle to find peace and understanding within their relationship after loss, and to those tiny little babies who leave this world much too soon.    I am opening up today to bring awareness to this often silent grief that plagues so many women.   I…